Feel bad for feelings,
Feel bad for your sex, your politics
Your diet, your clothes
Everything has a by-product in it,
Everything has so much and such.
Feel bad for feeling,
For being,
For taking time
For being.
Feel bad for saying,
"no."
"not today, my darling,
Because i am not safe there,
And do not feel safe here,
So why go
There
When
Here
Is as bad?"
Feel bad for needing,
For having a warm, empty place
And vacuums do not exist
Could not exist
Here.
Feel bad for working
For sweating,
For smelling bad
After working,
For clinging to what
You've made
Because soon it will be taken from you,
As all th
my bed never warms. when i climb between those sheets at night, they remain cold, through the hours and the rising sun and the headlights flashing by my window. both sides of the pillow are cold, because my cheek does not bestow any heat to them. i cannot be warmed either, you know this better than anyone. all those nights i clung to you, longing to feel your heat in the ever-winter of my age, and all i did was make you colder. you were slowly freezing at my touch, and never said a word.
i've never been sunburnt, the sun goes right through me. the grass beneath my feet is scorched my the magnified light cast by my mirror skin, and as the fro
i let you gnash your teeth,
and madly writhe.
coiled like a spring,
you will lunge at my neck,
bestial and hungry
for something i have but
can't find;
and you'll find.
i let you constrict me during,
and before,
and after,
i let your blood boil
until it foams,
i let you rest,
and shed,
and such.
oh wondrous krait,
you lie in the reeds,
eyes with a film and
waiting for sun
rolled on one side
and curled on yourself,
a cursive letter O
striped black and white;
i won't let you break me.
you can try and rend me,
soul from the dark meat,
grinding scales against
skin against bone,
you can win, i can give,
you won't conq
anticipating, each Monday
the weekly apocalypse
and sorely disappointed each time;
doom passes me over, favouring
stronger,
sadder flesh,
tinged slightly bitter
with trite fancies
sometimes i am sad
i will never know the joys
of being
stupid
irresponsible
free, perhaps, with fast
cars and fast judgments
and fast friendships,
fast white periods of pureness,
innocence spent touching, lightly
now, nothing too stark or too loud,
nothing but white swathes of thin
clothes and white skin and petite,
breathy bruises on each knee, not
saying anything that makes sense
but makes good fun --
but i realize i am not one of them
and here we are, and so you ask:
whose bones are these, these bones
stacked up so, on display for all?
these bones, beautiful bones, old
bones and new bones?
bones, bones and more bones?
here we are
so i say
they are my bones, darling
and your bones too;
the combinatorium merged them
into beautiful bone chandeliers,
bone throttle bodies, bone thrones
bone bones.
my plain, normal bones,
besides my slightly bent phalanges
and olphalanges;
your beautiful, strange bones
still new and amazing and bright
despite exploring them time and time
again
your fused hinge joints
iliac crests of your hips, straining
against your skin
speaking in idioglossium, thinking
in dithyrambos. my nervous system decays,
entering a necrotic state of disuse.
it is over, it is useless.
i shall never think again,
if i have any say;
ignorance is bliss, and in
this ignorance, surely i have found
rapture
willingly, i have sacrificed
my heart to the tenterhooks
we affixed to each wall, with power drills.
willingly, i have hung myself from the
sternum, suspended until my ribcage
shatters and i am thrown to the floor
dried up but
happy.
let me be meat, attached to these hooks,
the cilia of my desire and the roborant
to my ultimate loneliness.
let me slip out of conscious
you have bruised me
to my core.
in the silence of my midnights
the xenon gas you fill me with expands
from my mouth,
and fills a room;
hot,
heavy --
i grow used to it,
i thrive in it.
i become a temperate plant
of moderate humidity,
so
when the windows open
at daybreak
and the gas is replaced with
azure sky,
my vacuoles collapse,
i become little besides
a curtain of hair-proteins
and dust.
this is not what i thought i'd be.
my bones all ache, creaky
with the cold winds of summer
my nails are brittle,
and do not withstand scratching
so,
here i sit
curled like the
ourobos,
naked and purple
with sin and need,
i s
10:07 PM
"see, he never used to be wrecked. it was after They took his eyes. yeah, for real, snatched them right out of his fuckin' skull like they was gems in an empty cavern. then he was wrecked, yeah, after then. it was like after they took 'em, a few haints or a spectre flew in because he never had the glass ones fitted. they bought em, sure 'nuff, but they were never fitted and they slipped right out when he cried. and a man gon' cry when he ain't see one day when he could the day before.
"and those haints curled up, nice and cozy, real nice inside his sockets and reached inside his brain
Feel bad for feelings,
Feel bad for your sex, your politics
Your diet, your clothes
Everything has a by-product in it,
Everything has so much and such.
Feel bad for feeling,
For being,
For taking time
For being.
Feel bad for saying,
"no."
"not today, my darling,
Because i am not safe there,
And do not feel safe here,
So why go
There
When
Here
Is as bad?"
Feel bad for needing,
For having a warm, empty place
And vacuums do not exist
Could not exist
Here.
Feel bad for working
For sweating,
For smelling bad
After working,
For clinging to what
You've made
Because soon it will be taken from you,
As all th
my bed never warms. when i climb between those sheets at night, they remain cold, through the hours and the rising sun and the headlights flashing by my window. both sides of the pillow are cold, because my cheek does not bestow any heat to them. i cannot be warmed either, you know this better than anyone. all those nights i clung to you, longing to feel your heat in the ever-winter of my age, and all i did was make you colder. you were slowly freezing at my touch, and never said a word.
i've never been sunburnt, the sun goes right through me. the grass beneath my feet is scorched my the magnified light cast by my mirror skin, and as the fro
i let you gnash your teeth,
and madly writhe.
coiled like a spring,
you will lunge at my neck,
bestial and hungry
for something i have but
can't find;
and you'll find.
i let you constrict me during,
and before,
and after,
i let your blood boil
until it foams,
i let you rest,
and shed,
and such.
oh wondrous krait,
you lie in the reeds,
eyes with a film and
waiting for sun
rolled on one side
and curled on yourself,
a cursive letter O
striped black and white;
i won't let you break me.
you can try and rend me,
soul from the dark meat,
grinding scales against
skin against bone,
you can win, i can give,
you won't conq
anticipating, each Monday
the weekly apocalypse
and sorely disappointed each time;
doom passes me over, favouring
stronger,
sadder flesh,
tinged slightly bitter
with trite fancies
sometimes i am sad
i will never know the joys
of being
stupid
irresponsible
free, perhaps, with fast
cars and fast judgments
and fast friendships,
fast white periods of pureness,
innocence spent touching, lightly
now, nothing too stark or too loud,
nothing but white swathes of thin
clothes and white skin and petite,
breathy bruises on each knee, not
saying anything that makes sense
but makes good fun --
but i realize i am not one of them
and here we are, and so you ask:
whose bones are these, these bones
stacked up so, on display for all?
these bones, beautiful bones, old
bones and new bones?
bones, bones and more bones?
here we are
so i say
they are my bones, darling
and your bones too;
the combinatorium merged them
into beautiful bone chandeliers,
bone throttle bodies, bone thrones
bone bones.
my plain, normal bones,
besides my slightly bent phalanges
and olphalanges;
your beautiful, strange bones
still new and amazing and bright
despite exploring them time and time
again
your fused hinge joints
iliac crests of your hips, straining
against your skin
speaking in idioglossium, thinking
in dithyrambos. my nervous system decays,
entering a necrotic state of disuse.
it is over, it is useless.
i shall never think again,
if i have any say;
ignorance is bliss, and in
this ignorance, surely i have found
rapture
willingly, i have sacrificed
my heart to the tenterhooks
we affixed to each wall, with power drills.
willingly, i have hung myself from the
sternum, suspended until my ribcage
shatters and i am thrown to the floor
dried up but
happy.
let me be meat, attached to these hooks,
the cilia of my desire and the roborant
to my ultimate loneliness.
let me slip out of conscious
you have bruised me
to my core.
in the silence of my midnights
the xenon gas you fill me with expands
from my mouth,
and fills a room;
hot,
heavy --
i grow used to it,
i thrive in it.
i become a temperate plant
of moderate humidity,
so
when the windows open
at daybreak
and the gas is replaced with
azure sky,
my vacuoles collapse,
i become little besides
a curtain of hair-proteins
and dust.
this is not what i thought i'd be.
my bones all ache, creaky
with the cold winds of summer
my nails are brittle,
and do not withstand scratching
so,
here i sit
curled like the
ourobos,
naked and purple
with sin and need,
i s
10:07 PM
"see, he never used to be wrecked. it was after They took his eyes. yeah, for real, snatched them right out of his fuckin' skull like they was gems in an empty cavern. then he was wrecked, yeah, after then. it was like after they took 'em, a few haints or a spectre flew in because he never had the glass ones fitted. they bought em, sure 'nuff, but they were never fitted and they slipped right out when he cried. and a man gon' cry when he ain't see one day when he could the day before.
"and those haints curled up, nice and cozy, real nice inside his sockets and reached inside his brain
and i knew i was
never getting up again
when you bound me up
with my purple belt
i needed that only
when i shed the excess
flesh of needing
people;
i knew i was never
breathing again
when your hands closed
my bloodied trachea
why breathe when
i can simply
sink my fangs into
your bloodstream and
absorb the air
that oxidizes
there?
once the proud
benthic seadevil
i have become
instead
her atrophied mate
who is nothing but a
pair of eyes
and gonads.
were you the one who posted this fucked up song about drowning in the ocean and told us to listen to it at night? if you were do you remember the name of it??